Looking through the glass..

(Cry…)

OMG OMG OMG…. I feel sooooo:

1. Sad

2. Lonely

3. CRAZYYY!!!!!

4. Tired

for unknown reasons. Actually some are known but I guess there’s more than Calculus mid-semester exam (which I couldn’t do and I’m pretty sure I will get bad marks for) behind it >_<

I feel like there are so many things and so many works and so many problems and troubles that I can’t tell to anyone (expect well duh I’m writing it on my blog now which is avaible to pretty much, umm, anyone!!). Well, like I would trouble people around me only for my stupid mood.

So just to make me feel better for now let’s see what could have caused this:

1. Stupid calculus mid-semester exam..

2. Irregular bed-time, for this whole week I have been feeling sleepy all morning and day, and as soon as I want to go to bed at night, I don’t feel sleepy anymore!! Don’t u just hate that?

3. Irregular eating pattern, for this whole week I have only been eating max. once a day and lost 3 kilos already

4. Bad time management. I actually don’t have as much activities but this semester it seems like I can’t manage it or maybe my spirit has worn out a bit.

5. Things I guess I shouldn’t say in a blog

6. Damn, cannot blame this one on PMS..

Ok, I guess that’s enough for now. Just to let you know I’m not always emo, depressed or sad like this. Really, I’m a bubbly and happy person but just this moment I feel a bit down or maybe torn for reasons I cannot recognize.

Nothing’s right I’m torn..

You’re a little late, I’m already torn……….

Torn

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around
And he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn’t be that man I adored
You don’t seem to know
Or seem to care
What your heart is for
I don’t know him anymore

There’s nothin’ where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That’s what’s going on
Nothings right
I’m torn

I’m all out of faith
This is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You’re a little late
I’m already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don’t care
I have no luck
I don’t miss it all that much
There’s just so many things
That I can’t touch
I’m torn

There’s nothin’ he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That’s what’s going on
Nothing’s right
I’m torn